It was just not long ago....

The text below was typed, just a week plus before we break... And i thought maybe it was real. Then again, I "thought".

Monday, September 13, 2010

If you could make the effort, i will do it too together.How am i supposed to be okay about everything where i cared so much.what if you appear in front of me, and i break downbut this what if will never come.Although a part of me wish it will

-Sign Off @ 3:55 PM :)

Many songs brings back memories.
I hate the YOG song last night.
I hate the word just to thank you.
I hate to see love all around.
Cos reality it doesnt appear.I hate chinese new year, val's day, YOG , world cup , anniversarys , birthdays.I hate exams during this period. I hate transitions.I hate the fact that a compromisation cant be reached,
And i hate to face the fact that the love isint as strong for him to tide this through together.

-Sign Off @ 3:19 PM :)

hey hi! my blog of one year old! Pile of dust here. Am so sorry tt you were being neglected for so long. Let me clean you now.I wonder who still reads my blog after attempts of entering without reading any new posts.Blogs will always be my form of shoutout whenever you cant get the message across directly or hates to post on facebook or twitter where there are humongous herds of people stomping everywhere.

-Sign Off @ 2:41 PM :)

Should have realised that all was still lies when the side bar was...

The-Lady's Other Half
M****n C**n J****i(mYvIn)Die Hard PerfectionistWhinning comes with getting off the bed early

And she said her twitter has humongous people herding... Now she is like twitting her love life unbashedly... Talk about being fickle. Lol. Ok, I'm whining. That's not good. Haha. Positive! All negative energy, people fuck off from my life!
:)

Scary & Glad

I didn't know young girls nowadays can be so scheming, so scary. I believe she had it all planned out from the day she cried, begged, and threaten, just to make me stay. Her friends' numbers which she had given me were all deleted. And within a week after we broke, she got a new guy. Which all points out that my friends were right. I was being made used of. I was angry, but now I find it pretty scary. One at such a age can plan for revenge. Can just use herself like this and still lie about being it with such a straight face. Can just go after guys again and again just not to be alone. Who would let a opportunity to be with a girl who throws herself at you slip pass? Guys have nothing to lose anyway. It's just trying one more girl. I guess she has to love herself the most to do all these things. Cause maybe she enjoys trying different boys too? And to think she used to say other girls are sluts, keep changing bfs and bedding them etc. The ironies of life...

Looking at the photos, i do feel a sense of loss(t). Those smiles that i see, were they real or fake? I would never know. At least what I lost was only money and time. Time i can't take it back anymore, it's history and lessons were learnt. I guess I was happy too. Money, I can earn it back. I'm just glad that she only know of 1 account of mine. And glad I wasn't foolish enough to get her the LV bag that she want. Guess withholding some stuff were in my favour. Glad that it's only 7 months and not 7 years, glad that there are other people to take over being that sucker for her and in return use her. Time to focus and climb higher in my career now. Glad you are happy with your new toy. Guess we will never see each other again. Bye, Take care.

Lies... all lies...

There is so much things i want to say, and I guess this is the only venue to let it out. Cause no one ever reads this anymore and I can say whatever I want here.

There wasn't any love at all. Don't say it's love, when you can let it go like it never happen before. I guess it was just a fling, filled with lies. We had our happy times, and you said you moved on, so I guess it's time for me to move on too. I have to focus on my career now. Cause if I continue to mourn over the loss, end of the day, the one losing out will be me.

Is his name Lucius? I guess I'm right, but i'll never ask. All the best to you. To your so called love. Cause I foresee this will be the same as the previous, previous, previous relationship, till you grow up and stop being so selfish.

Collecting dust....

Wa, two months since I've last blog.... it's soooo long that it's collecting dust. Exams are coming soon and everybody is panicky as this sem is not that easy at all. I wonder if anybody still read this blog or not? Lolx. Damn lazy to update la. From what I see, only abang came into this site last month. Guess I'll update time to time when I feel like it ba. :) Till then...

Happy New Year & Happy Birthday Mama!

It's 2009 and it's been a long time since I've blog. It's my mama's birthday on the 3rd of Jan, so happy belated birthday! Discovered that her actual birthday is 4th of Jan. Lolx. Cause in the older times, people only remember their birthdays by the lunar calendar. Then, their birthcert birthday is not accurate at all, so... I just discovered that mama's birthday is on the 4th of Jan and papa's birthday is actually 12 July instead of the 22 Nov recorded in his IC. How cool is that? Lolx.

Welcome back YL! Make good of your short stay here before flying back ar. Mel is coming back for good too le. So fast, all the girls finish studying le. Most already start work le, happy contributing to gahmen ar. Lolx. Congrats to Gab! (You know why la huh). Oh, bought a new phone le, and sis bought a robot for papa. According to her, it can vacuum and clean the house on it's own. How cool is that? Will try it out tomorrow. Let you guys know the result again. If I bother to come and type la. Lolx.

New year, more resolutions!

Two losses and a fun filled trip.

Updates updates... been a long time since I've blog le... so time for updates!

Let us observe one minute of silence first... for my pet hamster Lumpy. Lumpy was a good companion. She had accompanied for one year. I first gotten her as my friend wanted to help a girl (whether out of goodwill or ulterior motive that I don't know). He couldn't take care of it and ask me to do it. So me being a animal lover, decided to help him. Though Lumpy is often grouchy and loves to bite people, she never fail to amaze me with her stupidity. Once out of her cage, she wouldn't mind people holding her and squeezing her. Lumpy was discovered dead by my mum. I wasn't around for her final moments. Why she died, I'm not too sure too. Maybe I wasn't a very good owner? Anyway, I buried Lumpy just in front of my house. May she rest in peace. I had photos, but I can't upload it as I....

Lost my handphone! Argh... this is the first time I lost my handphone. Damn sad one lehz. It was due to my own carelessness ba. I dropped it on the bus trip to Malacca. Haiz. Damn sad de wor. So sorry if you tried to call or sms but I never reply. I was still asking my colleague should I get a new phone before the trip. Now ji tao is forced to get one. Sianz. All my contacts and videos lost. My messages also all lost le. Gone are all the memories and words said for the past two years. Damn sianz la. Will be getting a new phone soon. New phone new beginning i guess. Any suggestions? Oh, a girl called my shop when I was away. Mama thought I had a new gf. Is it any of you? She say the girl spoke in english. My mama say, next time, wanna find me, pls speak in Mandarin. Lolx. Cause we are 华人. Lolx

Went to a two day one night Malacca trip with my agency. It was fully paid which includes meal, accomodation and transport. Phew weet. Shiok ar. I just needed to bring some cash for my own purchase only. They are saying next year go down under lehz. Wa! Steady la. Lolx. Cause the hotel they stay is 5 star one lehz. So if go down under, sure shiok like siao. Lolx. Bath in a big bath tub, bubble bath lehz... damn shiok. Too bad no girl with me. Lolx. Went for massage with my boss aka cousin though. Very shiok and cheap ar. 2 hours for 78 ringgit. Super cheap right. No special one la. U see the price you know already. Got special where got sooo cheap one. Lolx. Nevertheless, I was in need of a massage and it was my first time having a full body massage by other people. Now I also learn the techniques le, so next time you guys wanna massage can look for me. Lolx.

Had authentic Perenakan dishes too, like the Ch 8 9pm show. Lolx. Had a very nice bak kut teh too. Go there is eat and relax only. We also did our agency Chirstmas gift exchange there. I got a new berms. Yay. It was really a good experience for me as it opened my eyes to the kind of no need bother about how much you have just spend life. Really shiok. Time to work hard! Erm, that's it i guess, next time then upload pictures and reveal what phone I bought ba. Till then...

如果没有你

Exams are over, had my dosage of 《超級星光大道第四季》. I think it's really very nice. Must go singing lessons to improve my singing le. Lolx. I WANNA JOIN THE COMPETITION! Lolx.

Heard a very good song there. Last 2 episodes were duets. Very good. I like. I especially love to listen to the 和音. Very nice. Must listen to the song below and you'll know what I mean. The bottom one is the original singer - Karen Mok.

Pet Society is like my daily rountine too le. Haiz. Die.

I'm growing fat.VERY.Jiat lat.Die. Now wearing my office wear, I think my pants are like bursting. 2 options here. Either I buy/make some new pants, or I slim down. Haiz, time to spend money to buy new pants le. Sianz. LOL.

Anybody wanna exercise with me? Cycling or sea sports? Contact me at 94769328(9-Grow-Fat).

Ok, I'm serious here. If you wanna exercise, look for me :) You guys know my number right? Just let me know.


20081107 吳德宏+梁文音 - 如果沒有你 《超級星光大道第四季》


如果没有你/莫文蔚


Still praying... ...

Praying hard...

Exams are over. It's going to be the end of the year soon, and soon, a new year commence! It's the second year that i type about all these le. Time really flies. Soon, YL will be back, Mel will graduate and Jo will get a job. Vey fast. Really very fast. Time and tide, they wait for no man.

Please let me be with my friends next sem. Let me at least pass all the mods. *prays*


A cute kitten i saw on FB.

不凡的爱

Taking a break for a while. The 9pm show really quite nice lehz. I recommend all to watch. Lolx. It is a very teary show. It's been a long time since Mediacorp has such a teary show. Though they say Zoe Tay is a passe, I think that she acted rather well in this show. Chen Han Wei also acted quite well too. Well, for more info on AIDs, you can take a look at
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/AIDS#Symptoms
Oh, World's AIDs Day is on the 1 Dec, and
I also realised that the Presidents of US don't have sons. Ok, random.

不凡的爱 Theme Song


Papa, Mama & Da Jie in Beijing

Barack Obama - The 44th US President

The 44th US president was elected today. He is a African American, the first of his people to be nominated and elected as the president. For more info (FMI) on his life and campaigns, pls refer to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Barack_Obama (May not be totally accurate. People don't realise that wiki is not totally accurate).

I realise that as I grow older, I become more and more aware of the current events happening around us. I'm quite sure that when I was younger, George Bush and Bill Clinton also have after election speeches. However, I do not have any impression of it. Today, I'm pretty sure I'll remember Barack Obama's speech. You literally can see the hope in his supporters' eyes, standing there, looking up at him. Hopefully, with a new hope, things would get better for the world.

Yes, there are emerging powers coming up, but we still cannot deny the fact that US is still the current 'leader' for the world. Look at how the Wall Street sneezes, the world's index catches a cold. Look at how their media is influencing our younger generation today. How young girls use to be so shy and sing "When I was just a little girl, I ask my mother what would I be?", to the girls now demanding, "When I grow up, I wanna be famous, I wanna be a star, I wanna be in movies" Lolx.

So, the win today is just a challenge set for the future. Let's see how he will being about the change. Good luck.

Hope is around as long as we live.